I miss u I miss u I miss u I miss u!
I hate to be loving u only to know in return u do not!!!!
I know I need to be strong....I know I need to move on...but somehow....life will never be the same again for me!
somehow I do not want to enter another relationship.....some hw I just want to stay alone.....

Wonder who can teach me the art of moving on...
I know it's dumb...but I guess that just me....always looking to do dumb things ba!!

It's vday today..... Happy vday my dear friends...

Anyway, I am down with a 3 days MC..I was in shock when doc says that caused I think i have a million and one things to be done at work..
Conjunctivitis and apparently it is highly contagious... So for the benefits of all my colleagues I decided to stay home though I was really tempted to go back to work......

Seriously it's vday....my last twenties vday....my last vday being a single....alone....
Depressed...maybe...disillusion definitely.....to me I have given my all in the two relationship and just for them to tell me that I am not the gal they want... Somehow I have no confidence anymore in relationship or even to start another....

However, one great guy just made my day by sending me flowers...sunflower n put a smile on my face...
Somehow vday was not that depressing after all....

Hate it somehow that mama judge a book by it covers......always wanting her daughters to marry weathy people....wonder when will she understand that what I need is not a wealthy guy but instead one who loves me.....looked at Paul n John.....so what if they were wealthy....both did not care for me at all.......see my dad....he was not wealthy and had love mama fully deeply wholly.......

Met up with friends who I have not met for ages......While getting updates abt others...
Some still studying....
One getting a house with his 19 gf but she does hv some messy background..
Heard one just got married within a yr after breaking up w gf of 3yrs... Leaving her in pain
Another getting dbss...and mind u all of them are young than me by 3-6yrs...

Which makes wonder.....all of us have a story to tell....a life to walk....
Though having to bear thur some losses and some pain w tears...generally I'm still positive abt life...

But the question next is "what's next?"...
Changes often frighten me....new environment n people makes me scare....

Thinking on relationships.....I decided I really want to have a break before I love again......I want to learn to love myself...stop thinking for others..the other half.....I needed the time and the space....to breathe n regain my confidence...While embracing things that come my way....

Thinking on work...this yr is a bad yr for me according to the Chinese zodiac...so I think I better lie low....I guess even opportunities present itself...I wld not really know...

Thinking on my future...now being bf-less... I for see I may just end up walking my life alone....so what's plan b....saving up till 35 before I get my own place... In the short term...slowly get bk my gym days n slim down....while doing enriching things in my lifee.... :)

That's all folks....just shush me the best and as usual... I hope my family n friends may all just stay happy and healthy forever...

Testing out blogger again

I have always wonder...why cant I just type in blogger...tried and tried and finally I realized....all I needed was to key in the HTML column....great now I can have more updates.

Given a choice...I still prefer to the good old things...and blogger is also one of them...

Today is just one of those days where Sometimes....I wonder..
How has he been?
Is he happier without me?
Which lady has he been hanging out with?
What has he been busy with?
How long do I need to move on this time..... Truth is I do not know and I'll take each day as it comes....

Today marks the new year 2012 and I decided to start my blogging entries from today! The past 2 years had been very eventful with all the ups and down!! I am glad work had not been sooo, else I would seriously not know how to cope?

So in 2012, I have been thinking, the typical new year resolution of people!! Maybe:-

1. To Stay Happy


2. To Be Slim


3. To be Healthier

Which are also part of mine!! But to add on...I also hope:-

1. To be able to identify an organisation for me to volunteered at.


2. To stay home more often.


3. To cook and learn new dishes.


4. To find out more about Buddhism


5. To cut down on drinking


6. To embrace courtship and stop skipping it.


7. To not fall in love so easily in the next one year or at least 6 mths as adriel would advice me!! :)

I guess new year resolution list are a list of things of not to dos and to dos instead of real resolutions!

Anw, CNY is round the corner, thus I had spend the whole day at home spring cleaning and I am glad my study room is now ready. Really tempted to clear out a shelf for a collection of figurines..but guess sister is right!! Those toys are really expensive and we should not collect just seeing others collect... So I shall give myself more time to see if I want to start...or maybe I can start when I get my own place in future!!

Ended the day with dinner w rex... did not know where to go and we almost roam the streets!! But eventually decided to go Greenwood fish market!! Been wanting to go there for the past 1 year...but guess he would always say distant matters and hence have shove this venue for quite some time!!

http://www.fishshop.sg/

Anyway, I was really full and we did not order any main though I tot the salmon which the next table was having looks really yummy..... will be back for it.. We had:-

1. Mushroom Soup w white truffles oil (Yumz...love the truffles smell)


2. Seafood Salad (was so so cause it did not have my fav rocket leaves)


3. Oysters (Not tooo bad but thought it could have been fatter)

I thought the waiter for a bit irritating for trying to be humours, not sooo my kind of humor I guess, but well its his job and I would not fault him. And also I have this super loud gal who was sat beside me, and to me I can sense the guy was trying to impressed her or maybe they are already together.... Sorry but for someone who have lived a quater of her life... I guess childish behaviour is a super turn off and if I could have it my way, I would seriously tell her to "GROW UP".